Healthy Grocery List by Muffin Topless
Healthy Grocery List by Muffin Topless
Somewhere along my life I decided I wasn’t creative enough. I look at my best friend Jackie and see how well she paints and draws and even the pictures she take using her cell phone. I look at all the women I know who can decorate their house, cook spectacular meals. I look at everyone around me and see the incredible fashion (clothing, makeup, hair..ect.) in this world. And then I look at my life…. and I’m disappointed. I feel that I don’t, in any way, measure up. I feel as though I was born inadequate somehow. The last couple of years I’ve turned to various sources, Google, Pinterest, Lookbook…ect for ideas on how to better myself, my cooking, and even plan my wedding. I’ve spent hours upon hours looking for something I can copy or apply to my life. The strange thing though.. I never seem to find anything. I like it… but not for me. Well it turns out I don’t give myself enough credit. God gave me a brain of my own. I have my own preferences and ideas and creativity. No, I can’t draw or paint like Jackie, but hey, there’s plenty of famous paintings out there that are uglier than mine. I can’t cook a 5 star meal, but the dinners I’ve come up with from the top of my head, my husband enjoys. The wedding I didn’t know how to plan… God gave me my mother to handle. My apartment is cute with splashes of red that I’ve added throughout. The pictures I take, make me happy. And them being different, make them creative. I don’t have to adapt to a standard, God created me different, and instead of searching the world over for my next big idea, I can thank God for the brain he gave me, look at the world through my own eyes and trust my own taste.
Jeremiah 1:4-10: The word of theLordcame to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the wombI knewyou, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. ”“Alas, Sovereign Lord,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord. Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
There’s something greater that God is calling you to do right now, that was planned for you along time ago. God has never needed you to feel ready for the greater things He wants you to do. Jeremiah wasn’t ready – but what did that have to do with it? Very few people in the Bible have ever felt ready. Pastor Steven admitted to NEVER feeling ready that anything God has called him to do. Ever. But that has nothing to do with whether or not he’s going to do it.
When I reflect on my own character and tendencies I believe that I’m incredibly open and transparent. I smile with pride at how “nice” I am. In Catherine World I am the Queen. Recently however, I have come to the realization that I am not as “nice” or transparent as I think. I’m always looking for something I can control and if I can’t control it I freak out, at least a little. Everyday I tell God that He’s in control but really, I know that I am. I let God hold the wheel but I’m still in the driver’s seat. I try to be honest about my life and relationships but there are parts that I make sure the light isn’t shining on. Only Jesus could show me this ridiculousness in my heart. It hurts to see but it’s beautiful that now I can admit it. That’s always the first step. Denial has always been a buddy of mine.
The hard realization of all this is the judgment I know I’ve passed on people who lie about stuff. I quickly label them “liar” “not to be trusted”, but I’m just as, if not, MORE guilty. That speck in their eye ruins my day when I’m probably slapping people all day with the plank coming out of mine.
The Bible challenges is to be a “living sacrifice” everyday. So what are we sacrificing? Ourselves. Our preferences, our control, our safety net, even our desires. Giving it all up to God. Trusting him completely to fill us up, guide our lives and grow our relationships and character.
The problem with a “living sacrifice” if we are to look at it literally is that if it doesn’t die, it can crawl off of the altar anytime. I find myself convicted that I need to crawl back on that altar multiple times DAILY. It’s not an easy thing to do, but Jesus did it. He sacrificed everything to make a way for me to be forgiven from all my sins and screw ups. The least I can do is trust him.
Do I know you…?
People who beg like this…. hard to say no to.